So far I have been meeting the goals I have set for myself academically. In the past I have started out really well but then burnt myself out by doing too much in a short period of time. I'm trying to manage my class work and make sure I'm not doing too much at once. Now, that I've completed a chapter and done the exam I'm going to stop. Before I would keep going. I would do the discussion boards and even start the next lesson. But, I know now that that is too much. I feel motivated and excited for the future.
But.
I hesitate. I've been in this place before. Motivated and making progress. Then I'll hit a simple roadblock and lose all motivation. I'll tell everyone about being in school but then won't actually do the work. I need to pound into my head that it's not enough just to be in school. I have to actually participate in the work. It won't happen overnight and I know that. But, that instant gratification is difficult to overcome.
I realize that going back to school is doing more than just teaching me the required courses. It's teaching me things about myself that I either refused to acknowledge or was just blind too.
On a brighter note, I made the final payment for the semester! I am going to request the rest of my books and hopefully having them will motivate me to do my work as well. I like knowing I have all the tools I need and not having to wait for them later. There's that instant gratification again! But, maybe this time I can use it towards my own benefit
I will keep working. I feel so much better about myself when I do get the work done. I like seeing the completed lessons and watching as my semester work shrinks day by day. It is, I dare say, exhilarating to be doing this well this far. I won't say I hope I keep it up. No, I fully intend to keep going. I am determined too. I want a better life and a career. This is my stepping stone towards that.
Oh and a side note. I have been using this picture on my phone to help motivate me and remind me of my goal to live in Colorado. It really helps, plus it is a simply gorgeous photo!